Existing
June 13, 2016 at 2:45 PM
Meeting you
Life was bittersweet
I had fallen in love
Before we even met
But once we did
The stories were true
The stories of you
And the way you were
And the way we fit perfectly
Lock and key
Perfectly
You had been born
With the key to my heart.
Upon our meeting
I understood
As to why
Loves before
Didn’t work
I had been waiting
Counting down the days
The minutes
The seconds
Until we met
You didn’t remember meeting me once before
I didn’t blame you
Because we were young
And there were different
Things running through our minds
Once you said hello
Your hand stretched out
Introducing the idea of trust
Seemed all too similar
To the dreams of longing
I had once before.
You were the stranger
I had known
Inside my mind
Our love is similar
To the sun and the moon
The possibility of being one
Is impossible
We are on opposite ends of the spectrum
We are so close
And yet so far
We are compatible
In our similarities
And in our opposites
You radiate beauty
Within the words you speak
The warmth your touch gives
And the eyes that contained stars
And the world didn’t seem to make sense
Because how could stars exist within
The same person
Who is the sun
There was one chance
One moment
When the sun and the moon
Could exist within the same room
I was able to hold you
To touch you
To feel you
To love you openly
It was possible for us to exist together
Because I was the moon
And you turned into the stars
You guided me
Through the music of the night
Your hand in mine
Moved to arms around waist
Arms around neck
And I could feel your heart
Beating
Pumping the blood
That flows within your veins
You were the closest to perfection
The closest to happiness
That I have ever been
I didn’t think it was possible
I thought angels only existed in stories
The stories our parents
And our grandparents
Share in order to provide
Security and protection
Against the monsters under the bed
And inside the closet.
You were a special angel
One who existed
And kept me safe
From the demons
That live inside my head.
After our only chance
Of existing together
Side by side.
You disappeared
And ever since
Only night seemed to exist
You went into hiding
And I was left
Searching for you
Waiting for you to come back.
Months later
Which seemed like years.
The sun came back
But he wasn’t you
I don’t really know
Who you came back as
But now you fit perfectly
With someone else.
Maybe it was the way you looked
Like the sun
And I couldn’t tell the difference
From the beauty that you possess
But you are the clouds
And he is the rain
You two exist perfectly
Side by side
He has helped you
Form into the person
You were meant to be
The way you were truly born
You weren’t made for me
We weren’t destined to be together
God did not write our story
Because our story doesn’t exist
The story of you and him
Is now being published
Within every library
Photos plastered on billboards
You have become the advertisement
Of what love looks like
And what happiness looks like
We all exist together
But I am too busy
Being lost behind you
While you two are existing together
Beautifully.
-(hms)