17 years old constantly confused about what's right and what's wrong?

Unsure on what to do since she's always been preached the same old song.

Girls can't be with girls, boys can't be with boys, 

But she doesn't understand,what's all the commotion all the noise?

Then she thinks....... and thinks hard 

God doesn't approve it and she'd just break her parents heart.

Is that really what she wants.......NO.

But can't help but wonder should she follow her heart that way she'll know.

This thought regularly clouds her mind 

Though she knows she can't give the thought the proper time.

Wondering and seeking, yet scared to confess

Thinking everyone she knows will be hurt and protest.

One day this will all come out and she'll have a relieved talk

But for now this question will be locked in her thoughts.