I realized

this is getting redundant

I realized it

never trully accepted it

hated that what i am doing

is repetitive

tedious

I hate being one to complain

feeling alone

feeling like an under achiever 

sub par

also realizing now

people are out in life

in worst conditions than I

and i haven't helped

haven't tried to improve

either my life or someone else in need

i feel useless

this is becoming

annoying

and

i am sorry

trully sorry