& now i sit. 

motionless.

with my mind at ease.

like ive inflicted on my self a full lobotomy

with these drugs in my system.

and nothing on my brain.

it feel like im sittin on a cloud.

with no pain.

and just like that.

a happy soul.

& in the morning.

ill probably forget it all. 

& with all this pain just hurtin me over & over .. 

no one should ever ask me why im never sober..