I have been a young lady for 10 years
but too old for that for 19
There was never a second where I wasn't checking to make sure I acted my age
though I have never seen someone my age take the stage
Always too old to be this too young to do that trying to find the woman that wasn't cat
being young was just an excuse for not knowing what to do
for not having to pour your own juice.
Youth is a mistake we all make,
a blow we all take
A tool that makes the world shake to find what it is made of
is what I was told, that nothing really starts to fall into place until you can call yourself old.
I have been a mess for 19 years
I have known how to clean it up for 1
I have stopped squinting from when I stared at the sun
I've started walking because I know I wasn't meant to run.
I have stopped trying to find what makes me a real grownup by looking through tropes because everything on that list I have answered with a resounding NOPE.
I have stopped