"I'm fine"

I mean that's what I tell everyone, so it must be true right?

I may feel broken inside, but I don't know why.

I can't figure out what's got me so hurt.

The smallest things make me want to break down and cry. The bigger things make me want to evaporate from the earth.

Where did all my happiness go? I keep calling its name, but it won't appear. 

It's lost in the fog, the disgusting mist of hate, failure, unhappiness, and guilt.

I'm pushing people away, I'm pushing my friends away. 

I know they talk when I sit alone rather with them. Don't take me for a fool.

But why wouldn't they? I go from happy to sad in a matter of seconds.

Why do I feel so alone? I've been locked in a metal box, pushed into the ocean. I'm drowning, I can't breathe, shaking in fear. 

I can hear them. The voices. Calling my name. Laughing, whispering, taunting me. 

Don't ask me what's wrong with me, don't you dare ask why I'm upset. Because I don't know.

Society has got me messed up, worrying about every imperfection. 

Just help me. Help me from drowning in my misery, pain, and fear.

 Help, I'm drowning.