Dreams
I've got so many dreams in my head,
that my eyes shimmer with silver linings
and my ears hear the quiet symphony of romance and the thunder of drama
and I've heard that a mind in the clouds only harms you,
but I feel the rush of air over me like a clear sky blanket
and the view from up here is one of trust
I believe in hope,
and the world beneath me glows, grows
closer and closer,
like the very last page in your favourite book
Unhappy endings sting like bees
that are buzzing in my ears, reminding me that trying means also failing
I find reality to be a dream
but many times a nightmare
staring at nude and slender perfection,
life turning from happiness to desperation,
to rebuild myself out of tears and frustration
Pretty girls are pretty weak are
pretty skinny
Pretty boys are big and tough are
big and strong
standards stand in our way like roadblocks,
but people have cars and the power to run over these blocks
you've just got to have enough gas
everyone deserves respect,
but people always drop the ball
and we are all still worthy
They let us down so we let it go,
finding love in your heart doesn’t have to be hard
Forgiveness is key
and we will forever have choices
because humanity without choices is like spelling without letters,
is like counting without numbers,
we are free
And the world revolves beneath us,
but my world revolves around me
Its more cloudy these days
misty air making it harder to see,
I thought life was simpler than it is, than it feels,
than it feels deciding for yourself
what is wrong, what is right
guided by a glowing light
that comes from within ourselves and from God
Whether your head is in the sky or buried in the ground
Jesus said,“Do not worry about your life and what you will eat, or what you will wear”
So don’t worry
we all worry
I worry
How do I believe in hope again
when my mind is no longer in clouds, but weaving through fog?
Where it’s hard to breathe in,
trusting in God takes faith to win,
maybe that is who I should believe in
Who I should believe in
Who should I believe in?
Myself, my God, my loves,
the universe is built out of all of these,
My universe
like rings around the planet, they surround my soul
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength”
I am strong
My heart hurts for those who are hurting, it is not weak to feel for others,
it makes us human
And growing up may mean you see life about to crucify you,
with no mercy
but God is made of mercy and we are made of love
and people are abstract paintings,
impossible to understand,
but I remember what it’s like to fly,
to let my mind drift away on a breeze
I am a dreamer still,
but I mean to be much more than that
I mean to be an upstander in the face of dilemma,
to not let fear of the ground keep me from landing
to stand up against, not beside injustice
I mean to hand out peace like invitations,
but remember the past as a part of us
to let my dreams make the world a better place