See life hasn’t been easy

It is all about the struggle

Constantly running into situations and aggravations

That make you wanna drop to your knees

Shouting just leave me be

I take back what I said

Growing up is Hell

And I’ve barely lived a lifetime 

 

I pray to God everyday

Pray that He’d show me the way

To anything past this misery

I can take no more of this delinquency

People looking at me a judging

And me asking myself do they even know me

But then I have to step back

Take a look into that cracked mirror

While reality smacks me in the face

Like a football hero I catch the ball before it fumbles

I catch the realization before it flies away

Do I even know myself

Do I even know who I am

 

Who am I

What am I 

Am I just another insignificant person floating through the void

Forget it

I don’t give fuck what you think

Because this is me

Who cares who I am

I accept what I’ve become

I’m too good for all this shit

 

Coming at me from all different directions

Driving me crazy

Mental hospital and

I try to stay clam

Not blow a fuse

But it is so hard

To not lose my cool

It’s a jungle out there

Jungle Book 2

 

Especially when your struggling with the feelings and emotions that run through your veins killing every ounce of self respect and resolve that you could possibly have chasing after a dream you know will never come true but you hope and pray that it will because you need this dream to be your reality while it drags you in thousands of different directions making you go insane

 

Its all about love

Lust

Wanting something you can’t have

Walking around life wanting this one thing

Dreaming about this thing

Talking about this thing

Chasing after a dream

Does it want to be chased

This dream is unclear

Motives unknown

Darkness rises

Dust is blown

Time slows down

Gravity crushes down

 

The dream that you dream begs you to ask the question if chasing it is the right thing to do while you’re falling for it but not willing to admit it to yourself because you swore you’d never let another person in to break your heart but they snuck in and now you’re unsure of where to run

 

Dream turned reality

Clouds turned to sun

Fire turned to water

Water turned to air

Sadness turned to happiness

 

Slowly you start to realize that this dream that you were dreaming was unobtainable all along and that it was leading you on leaving you crushed, well almost crushed, you don't quite know how to feel because you block out strong and painful emotions because they’ll bring back your dark past and memories and all you want to do is cry but you have no energy and no tears left so you stand there and look like a fool chasing after a dream that was laughing at you all along 

 

But you are strong because mama didn't raise no fool or someone who is weak so you put your head up and walk like a queen with or without a king, a smile on your face you show your dream what they could’ve had, what they’re missing

 

Sunshine

Radiance

Beauty

Pristine

Enchantment

Perfection

Strength

Perseverance

Dignity

Class

Respect

 

You show your dream someone that knows pain and has experience in getting over it

Bouncing back

No matter how hard nor impossible

It’s a must that has to be done

Or else life would have crushed you

Your dreams would have killed you

The truth would have raped you

Your love would have betrayed you

The fun would have blinded you

And the happiness would have sliced you

 

Some dreams are meant to be let go before they have a chance to become reality

Some dreams just aren’t meant to be

Some dreams…some dreams are just another nightmare