So basically this is me writing and I am not positive on what to say.

Suppose I have a girlfriend,

Suppose she wasn’t a fake person,

Suppose it was a real relationship. 

 

So basically this is me pondering on what to say.

Would you judge it based on distance?

Would you judge it based on the fact of her being a girl? 

Would you judge it based on her age? 

 

I don’t ever want to tell you anything because I am worried how harshly you will judge it. 

That is the way you are. 

That is the way you act. 

That is the way you talk. 

 

I don’t ever want to tell you anything because I am worried how harshly you will respond. 

That is the way you are. 

That is the way you act. 

That is the way you talk.

 

So basically this is me saying what it is I have decided to say.

I do have a girlfriend,

I know that she is completely real,

I know we have an actual relationship.

 

So basically this is what I need to tell you.

 It hasn’t been long, yet feels like forever.

It is a relationship because we think how we do.

It is the way it is because of who we are.

It is this way because of the way I have matured.

 

I don’t ever want to tell you anything because I am scared.

Please don’t judge us.

Please don’t make jokes at us.

Please don’t undermine this relationship.

Please don’t throw a fit.

 

I do not need your critiscism

 

Constructive

Destructive

Disheartening

 

Opinion

Judgment

Conclusion

 

A person who cannot accept criticism

A person who thinks they are perfect

A person who overreacts

 

I disagree

I demand consideration

I do not want your opinion

 

No matter the type it is based on opinion

No matter the content it is based on judgment

No matter the point it is your own conclusion

 

I examined each side

I decided the pros

I brooded over the cons

 

I do not decide hastily

I do not jump with eyes closed

I do not need your examples

 

I have my own

 

What if…

What if…

What if...

 

What if I don’t care

What if I want to

What if I do

 

I realize the risk

I understand the criticism

I care not for either

 

I know what I want

I can go anywhere and do it

 

Just let it play out as it does. Just let me be as I am being.

I didn’t have to tell you.

Do not make me regret it.

 

Watch me, disregard you.