Decisions
How do you know
When you’ve outlived
Your welcome?
I’ve always been distant
Never right in front of you
If I weren’t anchored to this body
I’d always be somewhere new
Reality is suppose to hit hard
But it never really hit me
No.
Not like he did.
I’ve always been so different
Never really all in one place
But when he put his hands on me
I knew exactly where I was
I was alone
Staring at the turmoil
I read it on his face
I’d never be anything
“I’ll be damned if you don’t know your place”
He always said he’s sorry
He always said I knew
If I even really wanted him
I knew what I had to do
Why do you ever have to go
Can’t we just lay here in my room
Just sit down next to me
We’ll never have to move
You’re all I ever needed
I’m never gonna be just me again
As long as you’re right next to me
I’ll never fear a thing
I hadn’t seen my friends for weeks
I missed them quite a lot
He said he never trusted me
He knew I was a slut
He yelled so loud my ears would ring
“All I did was run down the street’
“Did I say you can fucking leave!”
I knew it then it wasn’t love
I loved him even though
My brain told me
You have to leave
You really can’t take this anymore
My heart begged
Please just wait and see
He doesn’t like to feel alone
I looked at him then in his bright blue eyes
Moments stretch forever
I knew I had lost
It couldn’t be
I used all I had inside of me
“I think it’s time to go.”