Dear Absence
Dear Absence,
I feen for it like a crack addict cause it’s all I know.
My last high seems to always become my next high.
Never days that Ima let it slide by. Sold my inner conviction for a hollowed devalued lifestyle.
Ask me if I have issues and I will tell you no.
Lies!
Ask me if I have regrets and I will tell you no.
More Lies!
Ask me what you want, I will only tickle your ear with what you wanna hear.
The root cause of my camouflaged life stems from the absence
The absence of a person who’s supposed to be the embodiment of love and protection.
A person who’s supposed to refine me through the fire and show me my true worth.
A person who is supposed to be my Batman in this Gotham city that we survive in.
Like Shrek, I was looking for my Fiona, but he seemed so far far away.
So I numb the pain with the hallowed pleasures of the boys I meet.
Tangled in a poisonous web
Every toxic venom from its sting is a lost forgotten memory of my true identity.
So go ahead, ask me if I have issues, and I will still tell you no.
Ask me if I have regrets and.i.will.still.tell.you.no.
Sincerely,
Self