I use to would have killed to have a relationship with my dad.
I used to chose my dad over my mom who does everything for me.
I use to date guys who reminded me of daddy,
When doing that i guess i was trying to fill a void,
Trying to find validation.
Trying to be daddy's little girl.
When i was younger i use to speak his name with pride,
But now that im older i speak his name as foreign.
I use to love my dad so much.
He's always been the type to talk to me as a friend, which is sometimes all i needed.
He never judged me, just tried to help teach me.
I share alot of his traits and train of thoughts.
Which always made me more vulnerable to him,
How alike we were, but how little we knew of each other.
I just wanted to be daddy's little girl.
I don't feel as if he tried that hard to have a relationship with me.
Im not happy with the one we have.
I've attempted over the years to make it better, but have gotten no where.
I've settled on the idea,
That daddy's little girl was never daddy's little girl.