My face use to light up when I heard your footsteps hit the door.

High above you carried me.

Your loving kiss on my cheek gave me no care in the world.

My adolescence made me that way.

Before I fell asleep I would pray that you would always be around.

 

Your words were sizzling on that hot summer day of June.

Mommy hated you for that.

You wanted her out the door but I wanted her to stay.

I followed her in hope she would turn around.

Instead we went away and never returned.

 

I now much wiser

Realize that you never cared.

I will never forget that spring when you left out the picture

I fell apart like a dandelion when the wind blew.

 

September had to be the coldest of them all.

Not a phone call or a birthday gift.

          When I blew out my candles

I wished you would send me back to when our family fell apart.

I thought that maybe things would be different.

I hated you for how you treated us.

But I love you because you stayed away.

You don’t want to be with us so as long as you’re happy

I thought you would be there

The graduation

The wedding

The last day I seen you

Gave me no promise that you would.

But Daddy?

I thought I was daddy’s little girl?