Daddy's Gone
It feels like just yesterday you were calling out my name
"Help, I can't breath" its literally driving me insane
I've looked at every sign you gave to let me know you're here
But i can't put my finger on it how your spirit is somewhere near
Heaven is so far away i wish they had a phone
A simple phone call away would make the worries go away
I can't sleep at night knowing i could have helped
Somehow someway you could still be here with out a doubt
I've tried my best to put it in the back of my head
To try to get some rest but i can't go to bed
And mother out there not giving a damn
It's like i don't exist i just don't understand
I've been called names so many times it doesnt hurt
You've taught me i have thick bones underneath my shirt
You're the plain reason why i can hide my scars
Nobody out there can do the same you've done so far
This is just a short story to pin point my life
Some day im gonna wake up && become a loyal wife
Too bad you won't be there for that special moment
I was happy with you but the worlds my opponent
I remember all the days we used to laugh and smile
Those days are gone since we're all shakin' in denial
I'm busted up with memories
We used to be a family
Now everyone seperated
I almost feel unrelated
My brother turned into some hood rat but no one seems to care
I've been questioning his existence since he's also never there
I have the best man he's always on my side
But that doesn't hide the fact that i usually want to die
It's not because he's not doing the best the can
There's just so much pain lately it doesn't go to plan
I hope you know i'm not trying to make excuses
I've made mistakes but no kid deserves abuses
During school i felt discriminized on the daily
Now that i'm out i feel like i get treated fairly
Everyone's like "wow you've grown up so fast"
I had to if i wanted to escape my past
We eat in silence no one dares mentions your name
They see the hurt, my eyes show the pain.