curves and edges smooth and sharp

heart is slowly torn apart 

a three hour set and a dead friend 

and shivering legs that long for an end

and when he wasls over my stomachs in knots

ask if he smokes, slowly he nods

yes 24 hour coffees a lie 

but we keep on driving and we dont ask why

offers a pipe and a glass of who knows

emptying inside my mind, so it goes

all too quiet, all too loud

he sits by me without a sound

wrap around me like once before

sing to me, make me sore

tare apart my cloths and leave

me to put it together in peace

i missed your eyes

i missed his too 

and his

and his 

and hers 

but none of them so blue

and maybe its just the pulsing red veins 

surroudnig your irises like rain

opposite colors, saturated night

chemical enhancement in all our minds

dont remember the drive home 

but i remember the taste of your lips from moths ago

and ive stopped ryming because 

the bees have startd bussing

and the skin has started tingling

and the fingwrs type faster and faster

and the words leak out like gasoline

and your eyes are the lighter

and i am on fire

and this isnt dire

but im going to die

and i dont know why

 and i wish we wouldve spoke 

and i wish i could ryme again

but that would require a book and pen

and that would require slower hands

and that would require you understand

ing that would require sober self 

old painted portraits on the shelf

drowned in dust but theyre alive

out and clean but i think i might die

...

but ill grab my wrist when the thought of you

comes back with your eyes red and blue

and ill cling to the hopeless hope i have

and i know ive made you mad

theres so many yous i cant count anymore

each one of them a closed door

but the you reading this, i know youve broken the rule

if i pretended you hadnt id be a fool

im sorry i wish i had never decided

to distance myself and not try to hide it

and i shouldve said that night at the band

theres something between us i just dont understand

and this poem has turned into something its not

so ill review the story and meaning i sought

 

 

 

goodbye