Lately my face has been so complacent, conversant with acquaintance but nothing changes.

Not finding joy within a company.

Isolate myself and let these thoughts linger until my face meets the concrete

Seeing many fairly confident in the paths they have chosen, setting goals, and not accepting a no. Because they understand that life comes with blows.

Rather than wallowing on the floor, they chose to get up and push forward. 

I'm indecisive, scatterbrained, and frightened. Feeling jealousy creeping up, I envy your security, sureness in yourself and optimistic attitude.

Trying to find what fits, but if all you know is the void, how are you supposed to get out of it? 

Learning that balance will add substance to my life.

So, there's no point in wasting time or energy on thoughts that chain me.

My focus on not being stagnant will leave me dormant. 

I now find it better to view the world similar to magician’s hat; though I'm not a fan of surprises I enjoy the laughs. The suspense kills, but what waits is thrills. 

Uncertainty with a mixture of anxiety sparked this piece.

Being unaware of how it will all pan out, that was never me.

But I guess the best way to know for sure one's destiny is to cease fantasizing and make it be.