All I wanted to do was move

Move away from me 

and 

Move away from you

Getaway from the pain

 And 

the suffering cause by you

Forced to be touched

Forced to agree with everything

No opinions 

No decisions

 Just trapped inside my own mind

I couldn't move

I was claustrophobic and you knew..

I trusted you, I felt safe with you

But now I can't trust anyone

I felt lost in my own house

I fought with my mind asking “Why’d you do it”

My family can't know, never will

I wondered was it my fault? The clothes I wore?

The mask I wore?

The day we were at the game

The day I got asked to sit on your lap

“No” I said, you asked again

“No”, as he asked again and again..

Till the time came, to go home, to be lost in my mind

Wondering was it my fault or was it my decision that I made..
As it continued on he finally left..