In a classroom

You pushed me aside

 

Feelings get big

Room too small

 

Heart’s too big  

Getting ready

 

Why do I feel

Like a bother

 

Push me aside 

I’ll push you hard

 

Bleeding down

Down the stairs

 

Heart’s too big

Is it too early to say goodbye

Getting ready

 

I wanna punch

I wanna scream

 

And you’re right there

Go away

 

⇜(Am I tangled 

Am I lost

Am I dreaming

Am I gone)⇝

 

Heart’s too big for the body

Getting ready to explode

 

Hearts beats rise

Breathing falters

Vision clouds

 

(I can’t remember)

 

Feet lift off

I’m not touching the ground

 

Hands go numb

Body goes hard

How am I floating

 

Blinding light

What’s going on

Come on now

 

Heavy chest

Heavy breathing

Heavy feet floating above

 

Am I tangled 

Am I lost

Am I dreaming

Am I gone

 

Where are you now 

I need you to know

 

Squeeze my eyes

Squeeze them shut

 

Then I’ll disappear

Then I’m gone

( I can’t remember)

 

Heart’s too big

Is it too late to say goodbye

Getting ready

 

My face gets wet

Tears fall down

It’s a river

 

Now I’m drowning

Arms won’t move

Heart won’t beat

 

What is wrong

Inside me