There's a certain type of darkness

a type of loss

a type of pain

a force that makes you cry

giving you the ability to scream the lie "I'M FINE!"

as it roots itself deep

takes you into sleep

kills you in your dreams

an unmatchable power

something terrifying beyond compare

it leaves a hole in the heart 

it breaks you down

has you taking to yourself in the dead of night

laughing at the voices in your head begging for their lives

the whole world at it's knees for this evil

turns a silent pain into raging, loud anger

filling your lungs with toxic air

killing your friends and family through your twisted mind

leaving everything and everyone scared emotinally 

breaking everything inside and out

the violent rage can only be silenced by a sweetness and loyalty that never leaves

only if it never left me to create this darkness

when will this sweetness come back?

when will MY love and MY happiness come back?

I'm tired

tired of living

tired of being dead

tired of crying

tired of trying

tired of fighting

tired of losing

tired of being tired

THIS is MY darkness

the darkness that comes when the sweetness that was supposed to stay....leaves