i woke up at 3:58 with you and Ray LaMontagne dancing circles around my head
my bed was a river
and i was floating in its water
i saw you next to me
delusional as i on our river bed.
you smiled at me as i went under
and held my hand beneath the water.
you were the breath i could not breathe
at 4:17
when i shattered the surface
opened my eyes of sleep
starry eyed and in that dream like state
but you are not there
and i am not drowning.
the pressure of the sheets the reminder
i
am
okay.
it is 4:21.
you are not here
i am still breathing.