I drink and smoke to take the pain away, it seems to fade day by day, I laugh so I don't cry, I breathe so I don't die, suicidal thoughts cross my mind, "forgive me for my disrespect forgive me for my lies" I hit the rock I was running to, I pray to God to push me through, I sit on my knees day and night,for something or someone to take my fright, I want to see colors and be in a happy bliss, but all I see is demons and a world trying to take me within, I take my last breath and finally think, I was all he ever wanted me to be, but with that last thought I was born again, I was one of his perfect creations.