Fri, 03/07/2014 - 20:03 -- astanza

"it is just a title

and a diagnosis" 

a bunch of words composed to create a list and

you are not your mental illness.


i saw flowers around nooses 

and laughter surrounding suicides

and glitter around guns

my ugly was beautified

a label glamorized

and i wasn't depressed or lonely

or detached


i was beautiful.


yet still


there was ridicule

and harrassment

and invalidation of my feelings

not because they weren't real


because they were beautiful

and who didn't want to be 

an asterisk?


but you did not see the anxiety

and impulsitivity

and instability

and chaos surrounding my life



i am not my mental illness

instead i am beautiful
because i am a list

but depression

and suicide

and an eating disorder

do not a person make


my illness is not beautiful

but i am.

i am not a list 

i am not a diagnosis.

i am a person like every else



that my feelings would not 

could not

should not

be romanticized and made beautiful



i am 


a trait

i am 

emotional and

living and


Guide that inspired this poem: 



This is a fantastic poem


Hey astanza! I love this poem, and I'd like to use it in a play I'm writing about mental illness. Would you be okay with that?


Yes of course! I would be interested in reading your play once it’s done!

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