Black I's

I look in the mirror and I see my reflections
Giving love and affection distorted all my transgressions
I'd give you my heart and act like I still can breathe
The man you meet is the result of the loved ones who decided to leave
Sculpt a smile and wear it everyday. Make up meaningless conversations
Don't want anyone to know what hell I'm goin thru
If anyone knew I'd been thru this devastation
Keep them out of these dark places
They won't do anything to help
I'm a soldier with the facts that I'm about to face
I'd rather face by myself in my head than in public
Sometimes I'd wish I never knew what love felt like
Is it better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all
The main one that you'll die for is the one who caused it
And they wonder why I act the way I act
Big heart and no one to take care of it
The one I loved just ended it, makes me think that all you said was wasting air cause you were full of it
So I turned to the bottle for help, continued to welp
I was drowning with no sign of Michael Phelps
Feel in a pit of my own vomit
How many scars on my body, bout 5. My heart has infinite
When I was with her, I was into it
Now I take my father's car for a drive where I hope to fall in anything but love
I won't tell how I left the people with my last name
Cause playing hearts is not just an internet game
Identity crisis but I don't give a fuck about my family name
She said I would sell my soul for the fame
But it feels like without her, I'll never be the same
Back on the road where I'm doing 60 in a 30 zone
Don't bother me. I just wanna be alone
Cause it's apparant that I'm alone with no parents
And the love of my life made a disappearance
So what is there to live for
This is it. Now the time is make cars crash like Mick Foley's entrance
I look in the mirror and I see my reflections
Put my mask on and don't even eat breakfast
Thinking about her and what busta she dating
Where did the love she had go, I can't even think of them procreating
I wanna talk to see where we stand
I want my baby back. My replacement had other plans
The pain seems to outweigh my passion
Let this end like I was trespassing

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