Being with you was like getting my heart broke everyday It was like having hope everyday like a new start Only for it to be crushed by your threats of suicide I felt like my words meant nothing I felt it didn't matter that I was trying to keep you alive because you didn't want to be aliveIt was like I wasn't enough for youIt was like no matter how much I wanted you to stay alive you didn't want to So I died everyday myselfTill it came to the point where I didn't want to be alive eitherTo where even tho I loved you I didn't see us being around in three yearsNot cause I was gonna leave or cause you were But because we were gonna leave togetherLeave this worldLeave the pain Leave the hurtLeave everyone behind And I couldn't stand how I had becomeEven if I love you I could never let me be that way And shit since I left you seem better too You gained weight you don't starve yourselfYou don't cutYou rarely feel suicidal You moved on Then there's me sitting in my room Contemplating life everyday Contemplating if anything is even worth it anymore Because I no longer have you Ever since I was little I tried to fix everythingMy moms drug habit My dads drug habit My sisters drug habit My brother mental disabilities Only to be let down I never noticed in the process of fixing everything I broke myselfI made myself become all the thing I tried to fixI became my worst nightmare now I just need someone to fix me Because it's gotten to the point were I can't even look at myself I no longer smile like I used to I no longer look like I used to A skinny waist replaces my once average waist Sunk in cheeks replace my once plump cheeks Acne now plagues my once clear face And we're my heart was is now an empty placeEvery time you see me I hope it brings tears to your eyes because I was fine before I met you Sure I had a fucked up life but that didn't mean I was fucked up I was okay I was perfectly fineI didn't do drugs I didn't cutI didn't want to dieAnd I didn't care about my weight Now those things are all that matter I put them above everyone and now I see why my words didn't matter