Behind the smile

is what you can't see

Behind the lies

is where you find me

Behind the glossy, polished surface

is somewhere I'd rather you not look

 

But if you must, then take a peek and see what hides underneath

The scars, the lies, the hypocrisy

The bruises, the facade, the memories

The tears that escape when no one looks

The things I hide behind the nooks

and crannies that linger within my mind

The unfiltered thoughts I keep inside

 

The thoughts of death, the thoughts of pride

The things I don't say, the things I hide

Such as anger, such as the lies

Such as the things behind the smile

 

Behind the mask I wish would fade

But it won't, because it's not okay

It's not okay to show yourself

It's not okay to let them see

Behind the smile,

behind the mask,

behind the lies and memories

 

The trust that isn't even there

The secrets that I keep

The things that I hide within my soul

The judgmental insecurities

 

An edit here, a shadow there

anything to hide from you

A sparkle there, a shine here

anything to make it look new

Like I'm put together

inside and out

Like nothing you say could break me down

 

But behind the broken, sinful lies

Behind the thoughts of suicide

Behind the sparkle in my eyes

Behind the smile, that long ago died

Is the truth

of what's inside

Is the truth

behind the smile