Center of stage, all eyes on me. I portray a character for all to see. Im a people person, friendly and open,  but when it comes to relationships thats a different notion. I cant express love, in a sense i'm lame, but how can i show something if ive never been treated the same? My sisters and brothers all had fathers in their loves, all i had was a step dad who threw punches and knives. And poor mother dear, she tried to bring her love through, but all she knew was rage because she was in my position too. When it came to relationships it would start to get old. My heart would crumble away with every lie that they told. They kept asking for trust but they always let me down. I'd still be coughing up water from the last time they let me down. So as you can see i've never been treated fairly, my wall grew taller, and my true feelings showed rarely.  wanted to feel something, to be longed for and held, but i started to think that that only existed in movies and fairytales. I've ;earned from the past and now i carry this burden, so i place my need for love behind the curtain. The main character tonight is hardened, void of feeling, because the original actor is still in the process of healing. Her heart is still intact, recovering from the last blow, but enough of that for now, its time for the show.