What makes me get up and greet the day

like today is the day everything will be okay.

Like I could smile for a change like back in the day

when my only worry was when I could go outside and play.

Maybe today I can leave all of the fear behind and not let my pass decide

I am a college senior at an HBCU and I am as true to my school as the sky is blue.

I study Theatre and Studio arts and when I say I am smart I mean I am SMART.

My three years have been be ruff But just three years and school and I am still not sure how I making out.

Open heart Surgery in my second year it seems my heart was too large

Lived with the pain of classes and post surgery making it up stairs was not fun for me.

Seems I work non-stop like Hamilton before me But Like him I will give up my shot.

The next year wasn't any better three deaths and a few weddings

happy endings at the cost of sorrow

Losing a Grandmother to lung cancer is never a pretty picture.

Aunt to sucide is a sad ending to the woman I remeber.

Mom died and even now its only been a year but I can still hear her voice in my ear.

I would give anothing to be her little girl again because in the week I had left with her 

I can't say a day goes by I don't wish I coulda left with her.

Two weeks go by after mommy left and my second surgery date is coming to close for anyone to rest.

I went under the knife another open heart surgery

it really could have been the end of me.

I woke completly aware now I live my life the way my mother dared.

Besides all of the classes and the lost of love ones 

The healing of broken bones comes a new level of things I must over come

I am 22 years old. 

My family my friends make me bold

they keep me going give me something to belive in

What makes me get up and greet the day with Maybe today will be my day. 

And then Maybe just maybe things will be okay.