Back to Black
Location
If you'd seen me
you would think I was happy
I am always smilling
my steps have an extra bounce to them
giggling is repeated often
and where I am their is a corny joke is commin' soon
But if you really knew me, you'd see black
for every smile you see ; there is an angry yell waiting for it's time
the skip I skip
It's me
making the effort not to slow to a crawl and returned to the extremely black place I am running from
the laughter that bubbles out of me it takes the place of the sob that wants to boiling out of my lips accompanied with it bestfriend... tears
and the jokes
it's only so there won't be silence
silence equals thinking
thinking equals the mind wondering back to black
But... SHHHH
you can't tell ANYONE
it will be just what they expect of me:
an over emotional teenage girl
who is lazy and irresponsible
whose parent didn't love her enough to stay together
and mother tells her to "GET OVER"things
and she tries
she burries it within her and they fade into darkness
she only thinks about it occasionally
by that I mean
anytime she is by herself when no one is near to distract her from her thoughts
her mind wonders back to black
and she cries... but she's "OVER IT"
lets not forget the father who tells her to "HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND GET GOOD GRADES"!!
and she tries
but it seems someone is alway disappointed
or she is disappointed in herself
so she she cries, again
when no one is near to distract her from her thoughts
and her mind wonders back to black
but... she is "OVER IT"