She sleeps while the rest of us stay up late dancing away
She feels the movements kicking left and right
There is no one who could save her or take away the frightened fears
Sitting away wondering how or why
I sit there wishing I could say something
But no words can fit right
We earned every bruise together on those cheer mats
We had weekly photoshoots
We made myspaces
We made dance routines
We experienced puberty at the same time
My period came,then hers
There was never anything we didn’t share
Time sped for her..
I never imagined it…
She was made of stone,the only one I knew who could withstand any pain
She made all of us look like cowards
Me and her oh yeah..
We used to run in the back yard..
Do cartwheels until we dropped..
You could find us cheering wherever there was sunshine
She was the only one who could pull the all nighter at almost every sleepover
She was the one I always envied
It was her long dark hair
Or the way she precisely put on her makeup
No wait it was the way she curled my hair like no other
The way I learned how to put on my eyeliner;miming her
Every time she left my life,she always came back
Back to the last conversations we had
We could sit there for hours having so much to say
But now ,no words to say
I can see her pain,it scares me
To know something moves inside of her
Something so immense for both of us
Her belly isn’t the same
Neither her walk
She isn’t the one I can joke with
Nor tickle anymore
20 years now on the planet
But she outgrew me in height and shape
Woman I see now
But not by decision,by force
I see those eyes…
The petrified ones
Like the ones she would have when she would call me those late nights
Tapping at my window at 2am
Through the years those eyes are still so very innocent
They tell me age is but a number
Shes still so little and so is the figure within her
I imagine what it feels like to have a little life within
I can come only come up with
But yet I still don’t understand half of it
Who is this figure that lives in my best friend
Where is my best friend?
Could this be the beginning of life or the end of life?
If only time could tell…
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