Are my abilities worth enough to compensate for my shortcomings?

I can develop a new language or an alphabet in an hour or two but I can hardly make a phone call without having a breakdown.

I can tell you how string theory works or the origin of a word based on its linguistic makeup but I don’t know how to ask for help or make small talk.

I can create complex cultures and fantastical creatures but I can’t maintain eye contact and I don’t know how to smile properly.

I can weave and bind a book and sculpt and draw and paint but I can’t really laugh and I can’t handle being touched, even by my family.

I connect more to trees and rivers and the sky than I do with anyone I’ve ever met.

I like being alone and hiding from people so I don’t have to try to talk, often to an unreasonable extent.

I create to communicate because I don’t know how to any other way.

I’m high functioning enough to not be an outcast but different enough to be an outlier.

But is it worth it?