Are you a boy or a girl?
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When I was a kid I wanted to be Peter Pan
Harry Potter
Anakin Skywalker
I had a padawan braid
In the first grade
Wore my brother's gym shorts
And could throw a football farther than any boy
But I was a girl
So they kicked me off the field
Even though I could kick their butts
I remember the first time the words
“ARE YOU A BOY OR A GIRL?”
Were hurled at me
A 6th grader stared down at my baggy clothes
And pony tail
And couldn’t understand.
But then again,
Neither did I.
I was a girl. Clearly.
But I wanted to be a boy.
I’m a girl I’m a girl I’m a girl.
But I hate the color pink.
I never wore dresses.
I’m a girl I’m a girl I’m a girl.
I was told repetition helps you remember.
It’s just a phase It’s just a phase It’s just a phase.
My parents put up with my phase
But at night they prayed
Prayed it would go away
Prayed their little girl would wear dresses
And pink
And play with barbies
Instead of drums
So I buried my feelings.
And they didn’t catch up to me
For ten long years.
I’m a girl. And a boy.