I'm constantly worrying about you. I know it bugs you when I'm like this and I don't mean to do it on purpose. I just can't help it. I worry that you're going to realize I'm not who you thought I was. You won't see that lovely girl you hoped I was. You can't see the joy and happiness in my eyes like once before. You wouldn't be able to find comfort in my hugs when I hold you close. But who could blame you. No one likes to deal with dumb girls who can't control their emotions. I know you want to help but I don't know how. I guess the best thing I can ask for is reassurance of how you're feeling. To know you still get excited when we make plans to hangout. That I still make your heart beat faster when I go to grab your hand. I can tell you're good for me. You're always on my mind and when you're not I must be out of it. I wish I didn't have to be like this. I want to be normal for you. I want to be happy for you. because it's you. You are the person that makes me smile just by looking at you. You don't know how you make me feel I almost don't either. I wish they were as easy to say as they are to type. But maybe words aren enought. Even though I can barely say I love phone on the phonee, I could show you everyday how much I truly adore everything about you. You make sunny days better and music danceable and the world around me isn't like how it used to be.

p.s. hey