I’m sorry

I’m sorry that everytime i burst into tears you think that it’s your fault

I’m sorry that i drown you in texts and calls. I guess some part of me doesnt believe you’ll always be there

so i’m sorry but I check

I’m sorry that I ask you time after time relentlessly, “do you still love me?”

I’m sorry that I’m so scared of losing you that I’m drowning you

But i’m not sorry for holding your hand

I’m not sorry for smiling when i hear or see your name

I’m not sorry for every memory that i run through my head like clips from my favorite movie

I’m not sorry for every dream I’ve had about you and I’m not sorry for the dreams i create with you in mind

I’m sorry for crying so much

I’m sorry that I never will really understand what you feel or go through

But I’m not sorry for trying

I’m not sorry for staying up to talk to you, because you’re my favorite person to be with

I’m sorry that you’re not happy and I’m sorry that I can’t prevent your pain

but I’m not sorry that i have to be tough on the long silent nights

I’m not sorry because the nights that you kiss my forehead and hold me close, It’s alright

I’m sorry that this is going to be really hard

But I’m not sorry for loving you

I’m sorry about many things, but one I refuse to be is sorry to be with you

Because I’ll never be sorry for loving you