I feel I should apologize now,
Because some how I know on my journey of life, your feelings will seem to be mistreated, but trust and believe I don't mean it.
I promise
I'm sorry for the mistakes you thought I made, only to realize that it is your reality and not a dream.
I'm sorry that your feelings are hurt, or that you feel that I threw your feelings somewhere in the dirt, but I want to make myself feel great and brightened with the moments held that my life wants to experience.
I'm sorry.
All the puddles of tears that's been collected for years, I'm sorry, I hope you have the time to drain the sorrow that's keeping you.
I'm ready to take my journey.
This thing that I'm walking on called 'hope' is breaking under me, opening a life that I want to be involved in,
I just..
I just want to take you with me.
My angels are looking over me, but I want you to walk with me and support my feelings, help to protect me and help me when I'm in need, be there for me when my seeds create new beginnings, be there for me please when I'm drowning.
God, I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
And honestly, I hope you except my apology because I mean it with everything in me.
I'm sorry for not being the little girl you expected; the girly tendencies that I neglected affected you more than anything.
I'm sorry that I dress differently; with my clothes baggy I feel more content in my skin more than anything.
With my hair cut, I feel more easy than picking a new hair style that would complete me, I grew lazy.
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry for putting you through everything unpromising.
But I promise I'll be okay with the decisions I make, as long as you promise to accept me.
All these tears, with us trying to adapt with our fears, swithing gears, accepting life,
.....my life.
So I'm apologizing now, before I officially start my journey.