Sometimes I think

I look back to middle school

in health class

we did a project where we researched a mental illness

or something like that

I researched anorexia

and I snap back to now

I usually don't eat lunch

sometimes skip out on the first two meals of the day

I do excercises often

push myself

don't eat when I am hungry

excercise until I feel dead

do I have it?

I  don't know

but if I do

it is only minor

I am still a good weight

and I stopped excercising as much

I eat dessert

yet I still wonder

what if?