i want my body to

                                                            s c r e a m

help me like the

                                    circles under my eyes           do.

But i am “Healthy”

 

Although i am

hurting myself

where no one can see,

and throwing up food in the shower so

            no one can hear through the walls made of

tracing paper, and crying myself to sleep, and becoming so skilled in

 

crying quietly i can do it while my brother’s in the same

 

room playing video games. But i am “Healthy”. Although i

thought about

Suicide four times this week, and i

 

 

 

wrote a note saying a Goodbye and i

am throwing away everything because in the

 

 

 

end i won’t need it.

And i am avoidingresponsibilities like going

                        to class because in the

                                                                                                end it wont matter.

But

i am “Healthy”.

i will not Die.

today or tomorrow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

unless;