Feeling alone is the scariest thing to feel

It's like ice flowing through my veins

It's breathing in icicles 

And feeling like no one will ever be there for you

It's even when you are in a room surrounded by people

It's the like trying to claw out of a sinking ship

Knowing that it will consume you if you don't get to the surface

And then you know you aren't getting out

And you know there is no chance of hope

It is this all-consuming feeling of cold dread

It makes me just want to curl up and freeze

I know it will go away

But some days I worry it won't

Some days it's not even there

Other days its all I can feel 

And all I want it to do is go away

But I know one day it will

All my friends think I'm normal

If only they knew 

I would have died if it wasn't for them