Although it's been two years, my mind still starts to wander

You occupy my thoughts, and I still always ponder

About how different my life would be if back then I had knew

The repercussions I would face because I love you

From the beginning it was real, or so you made me think

But at night just to forget the things you’d do all I did was drink

I was fifteen and so naive, both these things you knew

You made me think you really meant it when you said “I love you”

In just three months these words turned sour, there were lies at every turn

Your strikes were just “corrections” because you wanted me to learn

I now realize that I didn't deserve all the things you put me through

But at fifteen I chose to stay because I loved you.

Along with bad times came the good that made the bruises fade

You my best and greatest friend or at least that’s what you portrayed

You always had a reason, most times a shitty excuse

You’d say, “I want the best for you and I, so stop calling it abuse.

You can't hang out with friends because I want you to be all mine

I only yell to correct your wrong doings, so don't you start to whine.

You should know that I love you, I give you anything you want

You’re my girlfriend so that means that you are mine to flaunt

I give you consequences because I really love you

If it means that you’ll behave for me, disciplining is what I’ll do”

I never had the strength to leave because for some reason

I thought I needed to remain loyal and all else was treason

To this day I still don't know what I feel for you

I’m afraid to ask but did you even love me too?

No you didn’t because what you did to me you don't do to one’s you love

But none of this mattered to you when push came to shove

Although it's been two years, my mind still starts to ponder

But it's getting better everyday and I’m getting stronger

Even after everything you’ve done to me, I can honestly say

I’m grateful that I met you, you’ve made me who I am today

You taught me that I don't need anyone to have high self esteem

And that my partner should make me feel like I’m living in a dream

You taught me that relationships have their ups and downs

But nobody or anything should ever take my crown

You taught me what true love is and that I won’t forget

You taught me what it really takes to build a strong mindset

You’ve shown me what my standards should be and not to lower them

Especially for any man, even if it’s because I love him

I can promise you that I’ll never make that mistake again

I can bring myself up on dark days without the help of any men

And even If I should find that special someone soon

I’ll make sure he treats me right and true and is nothing like you

He’ll be honest and respectful and make me smile bright

And never put his hands on me, even in a fight

He’ll be loyal and understanding, the things you’ll never be

He’ll go the extra mile just because he loves me

One day he’ll pop the question, making a forever promise between us two

And when I ask him why he’ll say, “Because I Love You”