I feel it moving inside of me

My mistake, my blessing, my baby

I wonder if it knows how I feel

If it can feel all of my fear

I should have known better they say

It was all my fault they say

But I was young, thought I was invincible

I'm not so young now

A girl ages fast in those first few months

I was supposed to be carefree this summer

Instead, I couldn't be more tied down

Baby clothes, doctor visits, planning

Trying to see the future, but I can't even see my feet anymore

I am to blame they say

Not realizing that their judgement, assumptions, and sharp words

Hurt me more that this baby ever could

It moves again, almost like an alien

But, I feel the bond

I always thought it was a load of crap

It all changes when you have one inside of you

I wish He could know how this feels

Maybe He wouldn't have been so quick to run

I would have done the same

But, it's too late now; I'm stuck with it

I guess I'll just have to make the best of it

And despite my gripes

I'm starting to love this little alien baby residing inside of me.