Again
To a friend who is more than a friend;
the one with all the answers life's hardest questions,
and the one simultaneously lost in them all.
A friend often closer in spirit than in flesh.
Perhaps, it is this closeness that perpetuates such blindness
to all the signs and subtleties of your obvious pain;
a failure on my behalf.
It kills me to know
that you were hurting so badly,
that you will never see yourself
the way I see you,
that you will never know how important you are
to me
and just how significant you are
in this world.
If any light is to come from this darkness,
it is that I am glad,
glad our last text was
not our last text ever;
glad the last time I saw you smile was
not the last time I will ever see your beautiful smile;
glad the last time I heard you laugh was
not the last time I will ever hear that sweet, quirky laugh.
I am glad, no thankful,
that I will get to
hug you and
hold you and
see you smile and
hear you laugh
again.