After a Particularly Trying Philosophy Class
All the books are closed to me;
My mind cannot penetrate them.
I long to understand,
But never find what I seek.
Philosophers and physicists
Think away time and matter.
What does time matter
If it does not exist?
And still the way is closed to me;
Even that I cannot understand.
Yet what does understanding mean
If I do not exist?
For I must not, if time and matter do not.
I live in time, and my body is composed of matter.
Yet time and matter do not exist.
And therefore I do not exist.
This is why I say that
All the books are closed to me.
For what knowledge is in a book
That does not exist?
And what knowledge can I gain,
Who does not exist,
From anything
When nothing visible exists?