After the filter fades

I am left with nothing

But a bare face and my real name

After the filter fades

Likes don’t matter

And comments are no longer made

After the filter fades

The truth is the only thing I cannot escape

The dark circles under my eyes

Are no longer disguised by light

The smile on my face

Is not as bright

There is no gleam in my dark brown eyes

And suddenly

I feel the darkest parts of me breathe

My fears linger over me

The pain in my heart continues to cut through me

And then comes the rage…

My insecurities fog my mind

Enough to leave me blind

I cannot decipher what’s wrong from right

I scream

Until my lungs bleed

Until the green monster rips through me

I am suffocated

By my self hate

By my self-inflicted pain

By the scars that sunk into my veins

And then come the cries…

Tears pour out of my eyes

Every drop signifies all the pain I’ve felt inside

All my losses

All our fights

All the times you left without “good-bye”

But I blame myself

For letting things get to their worst

And never speaking on what really hurt

When the filter fades

So does the mask I’ve made

For myself to hide

The mess I am inside

When the filter fades

The girl they “like” dies