Addressed to the hater within me:

You see my heart break that’s about me

the pain you caused

devastation you cause

that’s about me

When you see my heart aching you don’t see me

Just my pain

 

falling bloody on my knees

trying to figure out what’s going on with me

that’s about me not about you that’s about me

always got something to speak on me

 

 

why you always gotta say

always got something for me to do

always got something you want to speak on my attitude

 

If you got something to say don’t say it behind closed

Those closed doors eventually open

I got something I want to open up too

 

Self-hater this one's for you

What I’m bout to say here it’s the truth

Not the lies you’ve been feeding me

So to all my haters especially you

Me?

 

You see me I got self-love

It comes with an attitude but it’s there

 

And my self-love comes with a story

It’s story is at one point in time it was on the verge of extinction

It might have even reach that point

but it was resurrected back into existence

 

this self-love is still developing

it’s still going through some changes...but it’s still there

figuring out who it is...but it still there

 

Who knows what it will become

Who cares it’s still there

 

But It’s overshadowed by self-hater

Self-hater

Here now yet in full development

now in fact your reaching a very old age of almost 18

you been following me around for sometime now

and I think it’s about time for you to die

 

The truth is the only reason why I kept you around

is because I thought I needed you

in order to address the negative problems in my life

I thought I need you to address the my issues

The issues of my skin my face my hair

and most importantly my body

 

But I don’t need, never will need you

I'm leaving you behind cause you caused me anxiety

Never let who I wanted to be

Denied me the person inside me

 

I never needed the depression you came with

I never needed the tears in the heartbreak that you caused

The reason for friendships that I’ve lost

 

Self-hater…

Self-hater you’re on your deathbed

and although you’re on your deathbed

I hope self-worth and self-love come around

and give you a fast and brutal death

 

No maybe not something fast like love

Maybe something slow like meth

For those hurtful words you told me became an addiction

Now that I can see clearly I realized they were fiction

 

You’ve had your turn

You’ve said your lies

So let me say my goodbye

You've been around for far too long

 

It’s seems like you need a little help

So let me help you out

 

Name Self-hate

Your death certificate reads

Sunrise 2001 Sunset 2018

 

Self-love now you can really be born

Your birth certificate reads

Name Self-love

Sunrise 2018

Sunset...Never

 

Addressed to the hater inside

To self-hater

From Me