The day I realized you no longer considered me a best friend,

I was lost to bend, text messages it cost to send,

But I kept it hidden... Pretending it doesn't pain me to insanely back away...

You made your choice.. I guess distance is where I need to stay.

 

They hurt you... Walked all over you like a mat under their feet...

By your side is where I was at when they decided to cheat. I messed up... Should have listened to you,

but I was fishin for new, just wishin it was true...

But you were the one with the clue.

 

Now you're disapointed, friendship no longer as jointed as it once was...

Cut from the trinity that was in with thee, I guess this is what hate does.

I never judged you, I defended your honor and pride against those that tried to tear you,

because I care too, but this is something I must bare too....

Because you two can stand without me, I'm someone you don't need.

I'm sorry you were Affected by my selfish greed.

 

... But I wouldn't change it. I learned while you got upset and prepared to scold,

my mind is set, just like fool and wisdom, coal turns to gold.

I love you both, but if you choose to judge me despite the fact I never did when you messed up as well,

maybe this is one friendship that couldn't handle going through hell.

 

I'm not perfect... I never told you I would be,

Despite the fact I knew the problems you had, I loved the good I could see.

 

You made mistakes, but I saw strong will, but then you stare at mine and and say it was the wrong hill

TO CLIMB!! Instead of being there, you said I told you so the very first time...

How is that fair? I hate that I hurt you, yet I want to scream because you made this a one way street.

I took your stuff with complete willinginess and you joined the angry heat.

 

Then I became a tool to hurt someone else that was on your vengence list?

I'm so hurt now, I can't even be pissed.

 

I love you very much, and I'll always be here if you decide to confide and revive the friendship we once had.. But I'm on the sidelines, I'm done trying to be perfect when I'm sad.

You two girls have each other, I'll make it on my own. This is the reason Best friends was not on my list, because they are never mine to set in stone.

I screwed up, and I admitted so, taking the consequense of my sin... Along with removing the love that I had been in... So you can be disapointed, that is your right... But when you messed up, my first thought was to help you see the light.

I did wrong, and I'll tell you that to your face every day. But you're not perfect either, and I chose to accept you that way.