Anger boils, my stomach –it quakes

I’m so done now, my mind shakes

 

Expectation is bitterness

Just waiting to bloom

You don’t respect,

You don’t care, I fume

 

You don’t feel

You don’t see

You don’t care

About anything that makes me

 

You don’t care about my stress

You don’t care about my life

You only care if I disobey

Or cause your life any strife

 

I want to rip out my own insides

Rip out my inner being

To not carry my name

Would be everything freeing

 

But you’d never understand

One’s overbearing, the other’s frigid

Your biases unchanging

And your judgments rigid.

 

One day you’ll look back

And see what you’ve born

A monster, an alien

You’ll realize when my hair’s shorn

When my piercings shine

My tattoos sing

My clothes talk for me

When I stretch my wings.

 

You’ll realize that you attempted

To force you into me

And you never thought

That something else would ever be

 

Something you can never fix,

I’ll be one of your regrets.

You’ll never be able to undo

One of your forever unpaid debts.