My life is not a splatter of beautiful colors
but rather a sea of greys and blacks
with smudges of the rainbow lightly mixed in

It is pitch black with a little flicker
bouncing off the edges
because although life was rough
the hope never died

My life is me drowning
in a tsunami of thoughts
that even I cannot understand

My life is wondering when I'll go home
and where home even is
they say "home is where your heart is"
but I'm sorry to say that my heart is lost

I lost my heart on boyfriend boulevard
and family avenue
because in that intersection there was an accident
so big my heart crashed through the window
and became unconscious on the pavement

My heart woke up not knowing its name
or where it came from

My heart and I do not assign blame
because we know that everyone has faults
and no one will ever be perfect

My life is a rainbow slowly seeping out of a black canvas
My heart a patient but tired explorer
waiting for home to appear on that canvas