At 1:00am
every single day comes with new challenges
stress
as teens we have to constantly worry about our future
while manage a demanding present
we are finding ourselves
and change is surrounding
every where and everyday
things change
and we just have to adjust
people frustrates us, and then dont listen to us
there are 7586483 things on my mind and my brain cant pick out whats important enough
what is worth stressing over
and even once i peg something unimportant my mind just wont stop
and the stress builds in swirls and tangles and i have knots
knots on knots knotting together in my head
and i know what i want with my life
and i want love
but also want peace
and i also need approval and acceptance
i need support
i need a future
i need to set up my future
but i want now, i want to feel all the validation in my emotions that im not getting
my head swirling and swirling
every moment spent for myself i think i need to be doing this or that
you have to chose and live up to this expectation of yourself
such confusion
i go go go and break and would rather miss life for a day
how do i turn off this head of mine
every word i type i feel it lifting from my brain
escaping thoughts
yes i need to sleep or work or study
what do i do
how do i do
i want but i need
i know i am not alone we are not alone
but everybody feels so so so alone
lost and drifting
you try to establish yourself
everyday is a reaction to life and your past
moving past what you’ve gone through
and even though we’re all on the same boat we all choose to through each other overboard
we judge and ridicule all the while we want to just feel secure
help
turn off my thoughts
give me peace
i am praised for my success
but my stress is eating at me
but i dont know how to live any other way
i need to to it all and succeed help me
i am a jumble of what has to be done
my mind pops in and out
rushes of feelings
i just need to sleep and relax
manage everything
but not managing stress
emotions and feelings and to do lists
everything at once
then gone
then back