GRAY'S RAIN

As I look into her eyes I can see her pain

It’s filled with gray rain

Just like a black & white venue

Her body is on his menu

His thoughts of her will one day

Haunt her future choices

Of what she does with her body

Lord knows she’s beautiful

Her anatomy is God’s temple

She captures features of

That princess from Aladdin

She lives in a place where the

Light doesn’t shine

The only shine she gets is the glory

Of them flashing lights

Those lights are not like

Any ordinary lights

They represent pain and suffering

She takes no days off

Because her sister

Can’t afford to be left out in the cold

I pray it doesn’t affect her in a way where

Every day she is sold

To please someone

For a monetary exchange

She does it for a capital gain

Sometimes she wishes she can do it

Like the some so called Christians do it

But does she even believe in religion? 

If she does, will she get a sinner’s redemption?

I look into her eyes and

She’s always paranoid, but

In her mind she made it where

Money will make it fair for her

Not to be scared

Of the illusion of a man taking what is hers

She’s saving up to make it in a place

Where she doesn’t have

To sell her soul for a pot of gold

All she looking for is for a pot to piss in

But instead she being pissed on

The money she gets

She gives it all to her dad

But she don’t know her father

How ironic?

Her complexion attracts many people

But her perception changes her

Direction of what way she should go

She tries to rights her wrongs

But instead she writes her pain poetically

There’s blood in her pen

The blood represents of what he did to her

I don’t even know her well

But I know someone touched her

In a way where it stains her heart

Like a smashed grapevine

This motherfucker is the reason

Why she’ll never be mine

Sometimes I wonder how I can express

The feelings I have

But will it cause more pain to her?

She attracts me towards her more

Like a fatal attraction

Just wanting to feel her affection

But instead she’s trapped between

Her so called ex

And the past of that other man...

The way he touched her

Still haunts her present

Maybe that’s why I can never

Be what I want to be

It doesn’t matter what she does

She won’t escape the ugly allure of him 

Because Obama’s quote of

Change & moving forward

Isn’t never a factor

When she’s with him

But one day she’ll escape that

Place of hell and she’ll tell

More about her pain

People tell her their light at the end

But she says

Show me the glint

Of the lights on the broken glass

And maybe I’ll escape

This painful rain

I know one day she’ll

Find happiness from my smile

Like the rain that flourishes down

And the sweet smell of her scent

Will be all I need to

Restore her heart with my love

And not the pain from

Gray’s Rain

Part 2

PURPLE PAIN

Consider this my reiteration

It’s a week after the Gray’s Rain

And my heart is attempting to heal

Itself with drinking away my memories of her

Life is teaching me lessons

But the lessons are rarely learned

I look up to the sky &

It seems like a storm is brewing

The sun is overshawdowed by the clouds

These clouds are not normal

The moon slowly comes in

As the sun goes down

The dusk rises and the light dies

But tonight is not any ordinary night

There’s a sudden change in the setting of the sun

Purple clouds comes in with

The darkness of the sky

A recognizable rain falls down

A painful rush of Gray’s Rain

Cascades down from the purple clouds

It ruptures the grounds like an earthquake

Reshaping the thing that we call “Life”

I go inside my room

And the darkness of the purple moon slowly

Consumes me as I pray

I try to hide from its shadows

But it’s too late

The purple shadows bind my soul

It enters my body and

Takes control of my conscious

When it’s all over I’m left with

A cup of some dark purple liquid

A voice whispers & says

It’s just Purple Pain with

A deadly mix of Gray’s Rain

I’m sitting here pondering

If I should drink it

Still the darkness consumes me

And I drink the cup of pain

It reveals my past from Gray’s Rain

As I drink it slows down my heartbeat

I can feel my soul

Drowning in it as it kills my sorrows

More thoughts of her are revealed to me

As I’m barely conscious

I’m left foaming at the mouth

On a bended knee and an intense rush of pain

I think about what’s mutual about love

How far do we have to go until 

We realized what we were looking for 

Is the love from God?

The purple shadows tells me

To drink more, 

I obey the dark purple spirit

And an image of Gray’s Rain

Appears in the clouds

The shadow continues to plays with my mind

The only way to overcome

This Purple Pain is to

Confront the clouds outside

I open the door and

I can feel the presence of Gray’s Rain

The image of her is in the clouds

A voice says to me tell me your heart

I say some things are better left unsaid

It all felt so surreal seeing her

I scream to her in the clouds

“If a flower bloomed in a dark room

Would you trust it?” That's Kendrick

She doesn’t know what to say

All I wanted to see is a little more in her

Before I invest in her foolish game

But without her trusting the

Flower blooming she won’t ever trust me

She asks what it means

I say it’s something we have in common

And what we have in common is pain & false love

I tell her I loved her,

But I was in love with

The person she had potential to be

Another cup of purple pain

Appears in my hand and I drink

That cups leaves me

Face down on the ground

Trying to look up to

The purple clouds of Gray’s Rain

Every drink is more painful than the last

Just wanting to chase this cup

With flavors that’s not even

As sweet as her, I stand outside

As my soul is being ripped apart by the purple pain,

But I won’t forget her

She got back with old boy, my heart was only a toy

I tell the clouds that I can’t wait forever

Love is not a movie

But to her it is, however

She doesn’t know usually the sequel usually slumps.......

She insist that she’s happy

I suddenly hear a thunderous sound

From the clouds,

I’ve angered her

And my heart erupts from the inside of my chest

I can feel her pain

I’m slowly dying, bleeding black purple blood

The image of her is fading away as I die

I must live to tell her the rest

The only way to see her image in the clouds

Is to drink more of purple pain

I look around and their no more cups, so

I slice my chest open and drink the purple blood

That gushes out from my heart

I tell the clouds that I can’t be killed

By her pain cause

It’s something we have in common

I can’t touch her, so

I continue to drink my own blood

To feel pleasure from her pain

I can feel my soul finally departing       

My nerves are cold & numb and I’ve realized that

I’ve overdosed on this thing we "Love & Hope"

It was all that I for us....

Just wanting you to be happy

So I ask God to please lead me away from

These painful clouds and let the sun shine

Over Gray’s Rain

And that you’ll never love a guy like me

I’m one of a kind baby

I ask God to use me like he did Moses

And to part the red sea to help others avoid my pain 

No one should ever

Endure this darkness of sorrow

The clouds finally go away

My heartbeats finally stops & I Die...............

I bleed out nothing but purple & pain

But the pain from Gray’s Rain

Is healed with a fulfillment

From not the cup but from God

I realize that he used this purple pain

As a way to heal myself from her

Now that body is dead &

My soul is now with God, he gives

Me another chance to live life

I know now that is not me

Searching for God

But it’s God searching for man

Because he gives his strongest battles

To his strongest soldiers

The sun rises and I wake up

In my bed

I look in the mirror and

Love is not an issue any more

I can no longer feel the purple pain of her

And I’ve fulfilled a minor part

Of my destiny....to overcome

Gray’s Rain & Purple Pain 

- THE AMBITIOUS VISIONARY. IX.