i..love you

yes i do..

i love you enough to hold on to you, even when its the hardest thing to do

so what is love if all it does is hurt you, a four letter word that carries the sharpest

blade piercing through hearts hard as rocks allowing them to feel the unexplainable 

and than leaving them broken, having not chosen to.

 

i love you 

yes i do...

but how do i let go of you when my heart cant live without you,

you've been gone for some time and already it feels like you have forgotten

about me, yet here i am writing poetry about you.

i dont believe in loving people from a distance but having failed to bring you back 

what other choice do i have...

 

your words still ring like a bell in my head when i think of you every night before

i close my eyes, and dont get me wrong its not because i try to get some sleep

rather..rather to hold back the tears from flowing, trying to stop my heart from 

breaking..my mind from thinking of you not being mines, see i never fell inlove

with the idea of you rather i fell for you.

 

so i sit up all night talking to my heart trying so hard to convince it that

it will be alright, 

and if i fail with that too, than i guess a failure i've always been,