There’s something wrong here

Constantly battling with my brain and my heart

Trying to figure why all this happened from the start

Tugging at my heart strings and causing me pain

But my brain says “You need something to get right again”

I don’t feel like I’m drowning anymore

Feeling just a little tired from before

Breathe in

Out

The world is spinning all a little too fast

Don’t know what part of me to control

Arguing again and again

But really it’s an argument just in your head

Hoping for change

Wishing things wouldn’t be the same

Hoping for realization 

But it’s all just a mistake again to speak up

Speaking about love

Fighting myself over and over again

Not knowing where it ends

Feeling like a waste

Leaking traces of blood and shattered hope from my eyes

Not eating, doesn’t come as a surprise

Wasting away again

Unwanted thoughts and feeling that way too

Not knowing if I’m good enough for you...too

Feeling a demented build up of emotion

Wishing I could end it all with one swift motion

Taking a knife to the heart

Daggers raining on my head

But all I do is lay in bed

Chasing the thought of the perfect love

Knowing that it never was

It’s all fake,the stories,the movies,the books

Love is just a game

And I’m the pawn

Nothing is perfect

And I never was

Nothing is perfect 

So why such high expectations?

Maybe I have so much time on my hands to pull myself into that dreamland

Not wanting to change anybody just wanting more out of somebody

But maybe they don’t have time for you

Maybe they never did

But you expected

And now that thing is dead

Where’s the spark?

That things that makes you want to shout at a full moon

It’s taken it’s tide

But you want to make it right 

But it takes two to fix a fight

Not just giving your all and letting them pick and choose when they can

Being clueless doesn’t make you my fan

Asking and understanding can get you far

But you look at this... at me like a job

Stressing yourself out and me as well

Maybe it really is just me

I can’t seem to make it right

No matter who’s on my team

Hurting everybody else and myself 

Becoming the epitome of pain

Constantly breaking and pulling myself away 

Like the ocean I come in waves

Letting myself down

And those around me

Still have to put a smile on my face and don’t become too grimey

Bitter but sweet 

Somewhere me and dark chocolate come to meet

Hopeless romantic 

Who would’ve thought I would become hope “less” for romance 

It’s dying inside of me

And I can’t take it

Everyday a piece of my heart breaks Its..

Down the drain,the thoughts of ever finding a love like that

Down the drain is the rest of my heart attached